10th February 2009
Dearest Hannah,I find myself confined to my bed suffering terribly as a result of an overindulgence in vodka last night and can find no better way to pass the time while awaiting the restoration of my faculties than to commit my thoughts on life to the page for your perusal. I hope you are well and also that I shall see you tonight upon your return to Manchester? Should my wish to see you be granted I am sure our conversation upon seeing eachother will inevitably cover the contents of this letter and thus render it redundant, however, should events prevent our reunion this evening I shall be comforted by the fact that I have taken the opportunity to converse with you in epistolatory form.
As you will know, hangovers lend themselves to reflection of the depressive sort and this one has proven to be no exception; I have chosen lonliness today above summonning the energy to venture into Withington where the company of the others would await me. Instead of conversation I have chosen to occupy my time with introspection, on one subject in particular.
With Valentines day fast approaching I find myself preoccupied by the knowledge that I shall be spending this year's alone and not through choice, as I had previously convinced myself. I have previously allowed myself to become irritated with friends whose lives appearred to be punctuated by the sucession of men with which they shared them. I would often argue that there is more to life than relationships with the opposite sex, however, I now find myself asking if ultimately there is anything more to be attained than the perfect happiness found in loving another? What I had previously prided in myself as a fierce independence without the need for a male companion now appears to have been superceded by a stinging jealously and an all permeating lonliness.
I am eager to know your views on the subject and quick to point out that while it would appear fairly easy to find a man, finding love is near impossible and with that in mind there is little to comfort me and little strategy available to me aside from patience and blind faith, I currently find myself lacking in both.
Dearest Hannah I do hope I havent dampened your spirits or lowered your mood by sharing my considerations with you, and that you will appreciate my eagerness to invite you to share your own perspective on such matters is derived from a great respect for your views and the knowledge that your advice comes from intelligence, faith and a truly romantic soul.I leave with you with a heartfelt expression of love and friendship and an eagerness to recieve your reply.
Yours always,
Chloe.xx
No comments:
Post a Comment